CHASTISED

How horribly lonely
is this space.
behind these terrible
blood smeared gates
self containing
self impaling
waiting
hating
craving
a look
inside
forsaken
awaken
and
feel my shame
my pain
help extinguish
the anguish
that burns synapses
reeks of rotting
corpses
is it stupid to think
that anyone would
ever want to understand
what it is like
to sit on the brink,
whereI am
lost much less what I feel.
self loathing
i am evil
sans clothing
i do not dserve
understanding.
i did not understand
while i was cutting
a broad swath through life.
who are you that
you think anyone
could ever love you
no!
be watched
be scolded,
Chided,
scorned
derided
feel the wrath
of the self-righteous.
never know
nor ever care
what i feel.
feel
More sorrow
burdened hounded
be killed
resurrected
life reflected
until the final horns
have sounded.
a man of sorrows.
you are in the place
you were born to
this is your lot
in life
this is why you are here
you will never feel
Her soft kiss again
never trace Her outline
in the darkness
never feel Her love,
you are worthless.
you are judged
you are
chastised

death

old women avert their eyes
tears of blood horrid cries
a shroud a shroud
cover it with a shroud

it is evil it is dead
run away
it's shadow
brings great dread

old women cry
i don't know why
it is only i
passing by

my greatest fear

la mia più grande paura
è essere solo
la mia più grande paura
è morire solo
la mia più grande paura
è dimenticare come scrivere
la mia più grande paura
è causarla addolora
la mia più grande paura
l'ama
la mia più grande paura
non l'ama
la mia più grande paura
vive
la mia più grande paura
non vive
la mia più grande paura
è la mia più grande paura

the chosen

terrible paths we tread
dirty roads running red
while those behind us
party on
just missed the reality bus
till dawn

never will they know
the terrible paths we tread
apathy do they sow
eat their bread
drink their wine
have no spine
dirty roads running red

i would lay with you

i would lay
with you
not so near
only just
within
your
sight
i would say
the words
that bring
delight
i would gaze
upon your
countenance
heavenly
radiance
i would stay
with you
play with
you
grow old
with you
if you would
lay me
not so near
only just
within
my
sight

unforgettable

unforgettable
are you
imprinted
you are
em·bla·zoned
on
ingrained
upon
etched
within
my very being
where find memories
of the
effervescent spirit
that sustains me
while i struggle
that refreshes
while i sleep
that i may
never touch
unforgettable