wake for me
my gentle
one
sing your songs
on distant shores
share with me
forgotten glories
fill my heart
with endless
stories
set my
soul afire
breathe life
into this
my funeral pyre
tell me of
my gentle
one
who travels
near and far
of shinning moments
in the sun
golden bonfires
satin green
silent moments
bronze sheen
tell me of
forgotten nights
of secrets shared
where lovers
dared and
fell contrite

my gentle one

tell me now
give into haste
speak to me
lest memories
spin become
debased

o gentle one
of times we
spent
of love we lent
of rings and
circles
beneath the
heavens
when we
did fly o'er
heather fields
sword and shield
to lie upon
o gentle one do not
be gone
o gentle one

baggage

How long will
you
torture me
hold me
accountable
for the sins of
another
how long will
you
smother
the love
how long will
I
torture
you
hold you
accountable
for the sins
of another
smother
the love
how long?

another night
sleepless on the
bathroom floor
stumble to my feet
slam into
the shower door
eyelids stuck to
my cheeks
soon to greet
the harpy's
shriek

reality calls
trying to forget
rushing water
and cotton balls
dried vomit
on the walls

slowly in the
mist of waking
where knees
are weak
and body shaking
find i joyful
release from
my torment
for
this
is
the moment
that makes
it all worth while

peaceful stream
slender dream
of a long ago
when neither man
nor women
governor
nor lawman
could my musings
stay
standing there
i fain to hear
the sweetest
cheer ever i have
known

my lost Love's
voice
her sweet refrain
to remain
as puke
fills my drain

a brief respite
for now the
comes the beast
deadly plight

around the edges
jagged searing
always jeering
deadly potion
wrongful notion

confusing
men who stand on
ledges
women sitting
on their sills
empty bottle
of sleeping pills

long black tongue
flicks about
putrid dragon
licks his snout
brain unlatching
doorknob scratching
talons search my brain
as blood runs down
the drain
in the pouring rain

banshee screaming
soul revolts
vapors steaming
all is blackened
life is wrapped
in silent desperation
angels cry their
blackened effusion
this depression
my final sin
darkness light
an endless plight
i can hardly wait
for tonight
Jack Daniels will
call and
clear my sight

dreams

when I wake up in my dreams
I see the memories that live in
between the seams of
and on sleep and good morn
I find you have gone
to the blaring glaring horn
when I wake on sleepy street
watching all the bubble gum bubbles
float on by
I see the all
the woulda shoulda couldas
wave goodbye.
when I wake up
and find dreams of you

night terror

darkened hall
leads to light
darkened hall
in the night
blackened greasy
nimble fingers
dance upon
crisp bedsheets
slithering about
bits and pieces
reaching out
fetid breath
screaming visions
pray for death
sweating fears
freezing years
stomach aching
stinking rain
trickling down
suffocating
defecating
in the
endless night

letters from the l plains

How are you my love? Light of my life. It has taken me what seems like forever to find you separated as suddenly as we were thrown together in that time of man's war with himself. I have sat and watched the summer rains falling on my Texas plains, and tried to remember your beauty.All that I could call were frail ghostlike images, stale fragrances, and faint refrains
from so long ago.
Tis been a life time since i have felt your tender touch or heard the healing melody that is your voice. I fear there is nothing left to say and only the most despised of things to do. Forgive me mlady for as I sit in the loneliness that is this exile of mine I ask and answer myself with the most negative of questions and answers. Even now I do not have the slightest hope that I have lived on in your heart.
Can it be so that this sojourn of mine has been in vain? Have I stayed too long in the wandering ways ? Does it not matter that I have loved only you in my heart though my fragile nature has strayed on occasion? I fear what I know to be and that is you are lost to me forever.
I pray for your mercy, I beg forgiveness for falling into your life and then for running away
across the wide furious ocean. Sad. this that one who once was so alive and carefree would now
be filled with death and trepidation. Mad, that fear kept one from returning to the comfort of your bosom. Glad, that one will not await a response but will wander to the wonderland where one will hear,smell feel and taste what one has lost.

With great devotion,
and utter cowardice
as always
drunk and depressed
your lost one

PS I promise to stop
drinking when i see your face again

fear

scritching scratching
door lock
unlatching
pull the covers
up over your
head
pray oh pray
to just be
dead
scratching scritching
door lock
unlatching

a simple harmonic motion

in my minds eye
finds I there
a notion of
m'lady fair
a great commotion
did occur
for none could
compare
with my lady fair
I did concur
at which point
need i
a lair
espied i
a tree
where i
did hide
to catch a
glimpse of
my passing pride
a notion commotion
a simple harmonic motion
hidden deep inside

descent into madness

gentle breezes
bright blue skies
silent freezes
silky soft thighs
faraway sprinkles
verify terrify as
darkening clouds
obscures the veil
weeping aloud
blackening rain
hell hounds wail
searing pain
visceral sea
no more to feel
the bleeding bleed
rushing towards
me as
an endless fen
as a
satin chamber
vomits out
screaming men
railing reeling
flesh is boiling
teeth a-gnashing
love is torment
and hate divine
kindly eat my
tortured mind
silently cursing
as hearts wind
down
endlessly craving
madness as crown

long lost love
rats are slaving
eating my soul
a mourning dove
a jagged hole
ragged breathing
such a pity
sliding along
an endless
ledge into
schizo city
peering deep
within the
hellish keep
descent complete
madness

cheating on a dream

dead calm
I find
sweaty palm
tequilla on my mind
a silent roar
ripples on the
shore
a dreamer
of dreams
in between
streams
banana boats
on moon beams
float by
gently slipping
toe nails gripping
across the
pastel sky
nighttime
regrets
on velvet lips
mahogany rosettes
form
comely hips
fleeting spirits do
comply
carressing
distressing
aniline dye
not the one
besides me
lie
cheating on dream

love is a photograph

brittle and old

love is a photograph

fresh and bold

love is a photograph

faded and cold

love is a photograph

covered in mold

love is a photograph

that never grows old

sdg

sit i now in the moments of
my greatest despair nothingness
around me grows
staring down
into the fiery
eyes of a local clown
Copper Red
terrible memories
spewing from my head
brimstone graces
my bloody jaw
wretched faces
snow white laces
evil places
obscures the
horror within
the gaping
fetid maw
rush of colour
flash of pain
gentle
hallucinogenic rain
oh dear God
stop the pain
instead a sweet refrain
which leads me
to my home my sod
precious God
do not leave me alone

Fiona Fair

And then i spy
within mine eye
the lie
which has
ere been my life
tis nothing there
which would compare
to the constant strife
that i now bear
without a care
She was
dearest to me
the briefest tear
upon
this fabric of
my soul
a ghoul
a wraith
a tiny mole
tis nothing there
which would compare
to the sanctity of
thy soul
a wisp of Love's
sweet breath
to clear the
fetid air
that i should
know a moments
peace i give
to you it's
lease
tis nothing there
which would compare
to m'lady so sweet
and fair
air which she
doth breathe

M'lady of the moor

M'lady of the moor

when first i seen

standing she was

on a cnoll

of Kelly

green



A moonraker

was she


standing proud

amidst the

crowd

she wore
babes breath

round her

ivory neck

a wispy cloud

for a crown

a shining sword

hanging down

a sliver cord

wore she

her

eyes ablaze

with the

fiercest gaze

transfixed

me in

a daze

besotted

by the

haze

allotted

a portion

of

heavenly mead

she did bid

me to plead

for sweet release

instead

i begged to be
bound neath

the winters moon
silently gazing

into loves tender face

unending joy
to my disgrace

forever wanting

M'lady of the moor

eldest son

sad little boy
looking out
from under the
bed
sad little boy
the things
he hears
poor little boy
scurries about
trying to
mend
broken lives
trying to
tend
to
that which
he
did not
rend
mad little boy
off to war
unable to
mend
or
tend
to that
which he did not rend
poor sad mad
little boy
when will it
all
end

would i

would i
hold your
face
in my
trembling
hands
would i
gaze
so long
into your
eyes
would i
kiss you
so tenderly
would i
let you go
on deaths
dying door
i would
not

dreams of you

when i wake up
in my dreams I
see the memories
that live in the
between the seams
sleep and good morn
when i find you have gone
to the blaring glaring
horn
when i wake on
sleepy street
watching all
the bubble gum
bubbles float
on by
i see the all
the woulda shoulda
couldas
wave goodbye.
when i wake
up and find
dreams of you

CHASTISED

How horribly lonely
is this space.
behind these terrible
blood smeared gates
self containing
self impaling
waiting
hating
craving
a look
inside
forsaken
awaken
and
feel my shame
my pain
help extinguish
the anguish
that burns synapses
reeks of rotting
corpses
is it stupid to think
that anyone would
ever want to understand
what it is like
to sit on the brink,
whereI am
lost much less what I feel.
self loathing
i am evil
sans clothing
i do not dserve
understanding.
i did not understand
while i was cutting
a broad swath through life.
who are you that
you think anyone
could ever love you
no!
be watched
be scolded,
Chided,
scorned
derided
feel the wrath
of the self-righteous.
never know
nor ever care
what i feel.
feel
More sorrow
burdened hounded
be killed
resurrected
life reflected
until the final horns
have sounded.
a man of sorrows.
you are in the place
you were born to
this is your lot
in life
this is why you are here
you will never feel
Her soft kiss again
never trace Her outline
in the darkness
never feel Her love,
you are worthless.
you are judged
you are
chastised

death

old women avert their eyes
tears of blood horrid cries
a shroud a shroud
cover it with a shroud

it is evil it is dead
run away
it's shadow
brings great dread

old women cry
i don't know why
it is only i
passing by

my greatest fear

la mia più grande paura
è essere solo
la mia più grande paura
è morire solo
la mia più grande paura
è dimenticare come scrivere
la mia più grande paura
è causarla addolora
la mia più grande paura
l'ama
la mia più grande paura
non l'ama
la mia più grande paura
vive
la mia più grande paura
non vive
la mia più grande paura
è la mia più grande paura